Category: Infertility

  • The Sun Shines On

    The sun shines on,
    Even in the darkest of times.
    Lighting the path,
    Illuminating the shadows
    We wait for you,
    We welcome you,
    We are blessed that you choose us.
    I open my heart to the possibility of you,
    That spark of potential nestled into the dark, quiet recesses of my being.
    Waiting and growing.
    Trying not to think of not seeing you soon.  Meeting the spirits who have chosen us,
    even after all these long years of waiting.  We have learned and made changes.
    So that we can do even better by you.
    No longer will our meetings be only in dreams.
    Soon my arms will be filled with your writhing, screaming perfect little body.
    At my breast you will be nourished as I share my very being with you.
    We come together to worship the fertile soil, the Mati Zera Zymlia from which we are nourished.
    As the fertile soil is renewed in the spring.  As flowers and fruits
    begin to proliferate, so too does the womb in which you grow.
    The living blood in my veins, used not just by one, but which now sustains us all for a time.
    That secret time between us.
    The space when you are unknown even to me.
    The time when others begin to notice,
    To start to wonder who you are.
    So many names you already have; inspired, teacher.
    Trial maker, for what we have been through in the waiting time is nothing compared to what is yet to come.  And with a love filled heart, we look forward to all the experiences and lessons you offer.
    You are loved and always have been.
    During the days when my heart felt ripped from its cage and crushed
    With the seemingly over whelming, all consuming pain at having lost you again.
    The realization that you were only visiting, not here to stay.
    Through the nights when we cried together, mourning you.
    There will be other times even after we meet, when tears of sadness are shed,
     yet there will also be the joy filled tears.
    Watching your adventures and explorations.
    The light illuminates even the darkest of spaces.
    Slowly the pieces shift, that which appeared to be and was immovable is never truly permanent.
    Not always with the desired speed, the transformation occurs.
    There is a crack in the glacier
    And urgent movements, the weight of sorrow falls
    Revealing vulnerable new surfaces.
    Not marred with pain and loss
    Free to feel love, joy
    To know the divine bliss completely.
    In healing,
    Amanda Hochman, N.D. 
  • Infertility and the Holidays

    The holidays are a time of joy, but for those struggling with being nearly pregnant, there can also be sorrow, longing, anger, frustration. The time can made even more painful by all of the advertisements for family photos, or receiving cards, emails and photos via social media of our friends and relatives progeny.  Yet, you are left feeling empty and pining for presents under a tree for that little person who has not yet taken up residency in your womb and home.  Months of  practicing, working and waiting for creation in its purest form can feel like a very long and lonely journey.  Delve into your feelings, try the Emotional Freedom Technique as Sarah Holland has demonstrated on her YouTube channel.  This is just one method  to try as a way to cope with some of those emotions which can be experienced on the journey towards pregnancy and parenthood.  Feel creation in our environment, feel the fullness of earth as she prepares to birth the summer god, welcome the Christ child, or revel in bringing light to the dark time of the year. 
    Maybe it is time to change your approach to the struggle.  Instead of wanting to slug the next person who says ” Just relax, the time just has not been right.” It may be very difficult, but thank them for there thoughtfulness.  For many, it is not easy to find an eloquent way to show empathy for families suffering from infertility.  This is in part because families suffer differently and individuals process the same experience through different lenses of life experience.  Taking this knowledge into account, when working with families, there is no one size approach to testing and treatment.  However, by combining advances in medical technology with plant medicine, tailored nutritional supplementation and other treatments available at All Paths Naturopathy & Midwifery, individualized care can assist in creating and caring for your growing family.